Time Stands Still

Could....time....go....by....any....slower? No. I think not. Seriously, this has been the longest month ever. And the kicker is that it's only the 12th day. I have a long way to go. Three weeks from Thursday to be exact. Last night was really rough. I woke up several times to use the bathroom so the sleep I was getting was broken up to begin with. That coupled with severe cramps around 4am made for a pretty miserable night/morning. I know now to just go ahead and get up rather than laying there in frustration. I made my way downstairs at 5am and had an early breakfast and buried myself in a book. I just dropped Reese off at school so I'm contemplating a nice, warm bath followed by a short nap if I can force myself to go to sleep. I'm usually at the gym at this time but obviously couldn't do it today. My energy is zapped as it is. On no sleep it's pretty much non-existent. Overall I am feeling really ready for this. I'm curious to see if I'm really ready when the baby actually gets here but I honestly do feel like I will be. I'm already packed for the hospital, his clothes are all washed and hung up in this closet, the crib is ready to go with nice clean sheets, the changing table is stocked with diapers and wipes, the bassinet is put together and in our room waiting. I guess being OCD has paid off in this case. Reese has been so great this past week. She's always fairly well behaved. I am hard on her a lot of times but she really is a good kid. Last week, however, she went above and beyond. She did great at meal time (which is usually a huge struggle for us), she was respectful, she was helpful, and just so much fun to be around. She also managed to earn three "positive patches" at school. Kevin promised her a pizza party at the end of the week so he made good on that promise last night. She was so proud! Hopefully she keeps this up and when baby arrives it isn't too hard on her. I'm anxious to see how she adjusts. I think she will be so relieved to have another kid in the house. I'm sure she's sick of being outnumbered by adults :) Okay, off to take advantage of the peace and quiet....and to say a little prayer to help me get through these next few weeks.