Mother Lover

There is no mistaking the look in Talan's eyes when he gazes in my direction. It's pure love. I've never known anything like it until now. Reese loves me....and I mean really loves me....but with Talan it's different. He will be perfectly fine in he arms of someone else until he hears my voice or catches me walking by. At that point it's all over until he's back in mine. There are times when he won't take his eyes off of me, regardless of what's happening. He's in his own little world; the world of Mama. While in Florida I took a long needed and long awaited break. I planned to spend the night out with my girlfriends and my first overnight away from Talan. It didn't go so well. I got a message from Kevin at 6am begging me to come home. Talan was refusing a bottle and had been up screaming all night long. Of course I rushed back early that morning and when I walked in the door it was all smiles. He was completely fine once he knew I was there. This is all new to me. Reese never went through separation anxiety and was a go-with-the-flow kind of baby. We left her with my parents for three days when she was 4-months-old to go to my high school reunion. Granted we were only an hour away but she didn't skip a beat. Talan? Not so much. I leave for an hour to go to the grocery store and it's meltdown city. I can't really blame the kid. In fact, I am almost as attached to him as he is to me. Speaking of being attached, this time away from Reese has been brutal. I miss my baby girl! Knowing that she's having a blast helps but I am counting down the days and can't wait for her to get home. I went out today and bought her backpack and lunch bag for Kindergarten. Less than four weeks to go. I've been talking a big talk but I am slowly realizing that it's not going to be as easy as I thought. This is a huge milestone and I'm not sure I'm ready for it. Being that Reese is gone and can't be waken in the middle of the night, I've decided to start "baby boot camp" this week. He's had full control since we went on vacation and that's not going to fly anymore. There wasn't much I could do while bunking in a two bedroom condo with four other people. He was sharing our room so if he was up and crying I had no choice but to give in to his demands (fed me!). I couldn't get up and go into the living room because he would have kept the entire family up so I was quick to tend to his every want and need. Last night wasn't bad, considering, but I'm not convinced that we're in the clear just yet. Then again, maybe he was just ready to be back in his own bed and from here he'll be back to 12 hour nights. A girl can dream. Nana/Papa, please give Reese a huge hug and kiss from me and tell her than I love her. Enjoy this week....not sure that I can let her go for this long in the future. I can't take it! To everyone else, if you've made it this far, thanks for reading.